[There's a little huff of amusement on Dante's side. Huh. Did Bakhura just make some sort of breakthrough based off their conversation? That's unexpected. But at the same time... nice, to know that sharing his experiences was able to help him like this.]
maybe you're right
i'm definitely lucky to have the people around me that i do. i know if i ever need their help, they'll be there for me no matter what it takes
maybe we can both be there for malik, even if he doesn't think he needs anyone backing him up
That must be nice... it's something I would have liked to have had, and it's something I thought I had with Malik when we were still friends. Our interests weren't always the same, but he didn't care that I was a bad kid, or that I wasn't as sweet and friendly as the adults around me wanted to be... he kept hanging out with me no matter how hard I tried to push him away. None of my usual people barriers seemed to work on him.
But maybe what we had was something he ultimately decided to sabotage despite all that because he didn't think he was worthy of it.
I was the same way for the longest time, and to a degree, I still am... but I had made an exception for him because he seemed to have made an exception for me, too, at least at first. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I was letting him in, but that wasn't the case in reverse... so I felt that, for my sake, I had to let him down the same way most of the adults in my life had let me down.
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And in the end, no better than all of the people in my life who had given up on me.
[ oh my god is this what he's been doing to other people all this time?? an epiphany. ]
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maybe you're right
i'm definitely lucky to have the people around me that i do. i know if i ever need their help, they'll be there for me no matter what it takes
maybe we can both be there for malik, even if he doesn't think he needs anyone backing him up
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But maybe what we had was something he ultimately decided to sabotage despite all that because he didn't think he was worthy of it.
I was the same way for the longest time, and to a degree, I still am... but I had made an exception for him because he seemed to have made an exception for me, too, at least at first. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I was letting him in, but that wasn't the case in reverse... so I felt that, for my sake, I had to let him down the same way most of the adults in my life had let me down.
But now I know why they did.
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But I'll meet him halfway if he does.
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But finally:]
so i'll see you sunday?
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Later.