That must be nice... it's something I would have liked to have had, and it's something I thought I had with Malik when we were still friends. Our interests weren't always the same, but he didn't care that I was a bad kid, or that I wasn't as sweet and friendly as the adults around me wanted to be... he kept hanging out with me no matter how hard I tried to push him away. None of my usual people barriers seemed to work on him.
But maybe what we had was something he ultimately decided to sabotage despite all that because he didn't think he was worthy of it.
I was the same way for the longest time, and to a degree, I still am... but I had made an exception for him because he seemed to have made an exception for me, too, at least at first. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I was letting him in, but that wasn't the case in reverse... so I felt that, for my sake, I had to let him down the same way most of the adults in my life had let me down.
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But maybe what we had was something he ultimately decided to sabotage despite all that because he didn't think he was worthy of it.
I was the same way for the longest time, and to a degree, I still am... but I had made an exception for him because he seemed to have made an exception for me, too, at least at first. Unfortunately, I was wrong. I was letting him in, but that wasn't the case in reverse... so I felt that, for my sake, I had to let him down the same way most of the adults in my life had let me down.
But now I know why they did.